My Conscious Lyrics (tread)

[Rade]

I sit down and write what ever I can think up off the top of my head, base on the mood.

 



I see some things
That would make you cry
I been through some things
That be done to me Time after Time

It as old as time
Like nursery rhythms
It as old as time
Like the land before time

This aint no contest for who got it worst
This is just me trying to confers
Nothing helps the pain or my agony
Running on the fine line to the brink that is my sanity
I dont know how long I want to keep going
As I follow this path that set in motion

I cant see it ending any time soon
These choices I made is taking me no where any time soon
I hope if I keep going ill eventually reach the promise land
That I keep telling myself in order to keep going and hope to understand
All the reasons that happen to me
Just hope I can make the trip still in one piece


Not sure if Im in the mood for a swim
Got a long way to go and the road is looking pretty thin
I guess something up with me but I dont even know it
So here I go jumping in the freezing sea of many unknowns
My warmth that was my love is fading away
My friends that are close to me start to get worry
They say to me "were starting to really see you change"

Trying to stay afloat as Im struggling
Pushing to reach the other side
Dont want to get tire out and pull in by the riptide
The water looking gloomy
Scare cause I dont know what around me

Im wash up now
Standing on the shores feeling proud
Came a long way
And as Im looking now
Im far from reaching my desires
Long to aspire and reach the impossible
This is not my beach paradise
Running into the thick forest now
As the animal in me starts to come out

Seems like Ill never be satisfy  
As I go primal to keep my spirit alive
Emotions are so out of wack
I think maybe im starting to turn extremely beastly
My cries echo in the pitch of night
The sound vibrates shrills that can kill leaving every one in fright

Looking for a meal
Engulfing the land bounty
Burning a fire that spreads out of me
Shadows are now casting from me
I go into a frenzy
Dancing in a circle that looping
Im angry now
Raging now
Im troubling now
Words are getting slur as my speech can no longer seems converse
Everything I say now is starting to get absurd
My mind now gone and here comes my insanity
It taking hold of me
As I transformed into a darker side of me
All my past is coming back to haunt me
Remind me that im not as strong that I use to be
Reminding me Im just a mortal man looking to be
Something greater
I feel so incomplete

All my dreams
Coming back to me like empty wishes  
Cold press reality has me push against the freezing winds
The night sky is not so comforting
Cover in a veil that blind me sight
Messing with my thoughts and clouding my conclusions
I cant make a judgment as my self deception is start to get confusing
No longer want to be part of society
No longer want to follow along the lines of people notions
I got my own gears set in motion

I wonder how long before I reach my final destination
I see that there no other choice sadly is just desperation
To leave behind all my dreams
As the rain comes now pouring on me
Heavy like a shower full of cries
Something about sadness that I find beautiful in certain times


Now the flames are being put down
I start to feel relief as the sun is no longer down
The night is fading away
I feel as if I was able to survive the night
I think Ill have to keep doing this
 
Time after Time

[Relym]

Cripes, man, you're bookin' it. Depressing, but they make sense and flow well.

[Rade]

I guess if there is one thing I can say to you all before I die
To all of you boys and girls
That are watching me
Your curiosity is the only means that you have to rise above all means to seeking
To go further above reality
Their no such thing as right or wrong just people different way of thinking
So dont let anybody tell you other wise but always go with the best choice that your reason says

Your body is growing and changing
You might not know it yet but it will influence how you see the world
Sorry that you dont want this to happen with you
Their some pleasure and pain in living life
Look and go after it
Seek what makes you happy that which you can benefit a even more peaceful life

A lot of issues and problem with society is that every one not the same
We all have different needs and wants
Just ideas and desires that get cross wire with our reality
I do not know to how put this much more easily
with out influencing you.
I miss my past and all it simplicity and I watch you all
knowing what waits for you all.
All we can do is rise above all that life brings so little girls and boys and little boys and girls please dont you cry. Life can be what ever you wish it to be just understand that everything thing comes at a cost. Nothing can be free or would it have any meaning.

So give me a hug and let me see you smile
I wish I could be their for you when you grow up and know what I mean
The only good is truth which is reality
How it influences you is still your choice
Dont think you can escape from responsibility.

Welcome to the real world
Take a seat and try to figure out
What is better then life?
Their no easy or simple answer for everything.
Still something always seems better on the other side.


I guess if there is one thing I can say to you all before I die
To all of you boys and girls
That are watching me
Your curiosity is the only means that you have to rise above all means to seeking
To go further above reality